Achyutatma prabh biography

Appendix 1. The spiritual principles of financial well -being part 8. If you have not yet read the previous parts of the biography, I advise you to start from the beginning. I describe everything there, starting from my coming to Krishna's consciousness. Or read this article, and then, inspired, return to the beginning of the story. And seeing that Krishna was actively pushing me out of the current circumstances, and I no longer have a place in the ashram, I decided to fly away to Gaura-Purnim in Mayapur for rebooting.

You know, in previous articles I wrote about different events, sometimes difficult, but there in my life there was always a rich internal taste that interrupted the rest. Sometimes it was hard, sometimes sad, but there was definitely no boring or “bad”. Here, when our program of traveling Sankertana closed, I had a gaping hole inside, and everything around, even the distribution of books, became ...

fresh. Verily, there is no sense in life, if it does not have the living presence of the Lord and His inner energy, and vice versa - no matter how perfect life may seem in the external plan, without them, it is terrible with its emptiness. There can be a lot of flickering of events, but there is no fullness. And now I’m not even about gross things, like finance, health, a good spouse or a wife, etc.

It seems to us that if I had it - I would be happy. But the paradox is that all this can be present in life, but you will still suffer: like the rich people who, despite any earthly sensual pleasures, fall into longing and depression. The secret lies in the ability to be in contact with the inner energy of the Lord. She even transforms routine into unforgettable experience, because inside there will be an outwardly irrational happiness.

Duck, because of the freshness of what is happening, such questions as: “Where is this taste? Why did he leave my life? How to return to it? Then I did not have enough consciousness to formulate them correctly: “Krishna, where are you? Why don't I feel your presence in my life anymore? Krishna-ah, return-and-s! I am sure that with such a wording, everything would have passed almost the same, but there would be a striking different attitude to what is happening internally.

Then, having met the devotees, who immediately became very expensive to me, only three months later I had to leave them and go to another country, where I did not know anyone at all, and I was not even sure if I could find devoted there. Then a year of life in the temple is mainly alone. Then, finally, three years of life with close associates, but even then during our wanderings in cities, each time we had some kind of relationship with people, and then we had to relieve them and go further, to the next city, knowing that you would not return back to these people.

And now it was necessary to once again leave all the relations and tests that had developed and hardened by joint adventures and tests behind, and start everything somewhere in a new place, taking only your laptop, money with money and two sets of clothing. Where will Krishna lead me? I did not know this at all. In Russia at that time, only some devoted communities where I joined, and my spiritual teacher, were familiar to me from Vaishnavas.

I did not know anyone else. I heard names, but no more. Therefore, fearing changes, in India I decided to fly through Novosibirsk to look into my native lands that attracted me. Thoughts in my head: “Maybe I would return there? Everything is so close and familiar there. ” But, wandering through the streets of childhood, I did not feel anything-as if it was some kind of completely unfamiliar city with which nothing connected us with.

And my life-neither a school, no university, no work, nor friends until Krishna’s consciousness, I somehow did not remember at all. With the exception of one or two people who were once very dear to me, but they also left there. In the community, over these few years, the composition of the devotees also changed so much that on the Sunday program I almost did not recognize anyone from those with whom I spoke closely before my departure-someone left, someone left society.

In general, in the community, I also did not feel “at home”, although several devoted people I knew still remained. In particular, in the Akademgorodok, just from among the group that Bhakta-Vatsala Prabhu once collected in the second part of the story, so I moved to live with them. It was joyful to spend time with them, and yet, having been there for about a month, I felt that the inner emptiness did not leave, so, moving the desire to escape from it, I continued the journey and flew to the Mayapur to meet with a spiritual teacher.

In general, because of the characteristics of health, life in India is hard to give me, including Mayapur, but it is precisely the Mayapur itself. Most of all for the fact that there, when I go somewhere on the campus, past the temple of the Vedic planetarium, I just want to hum “Hare Krishna” mantra. Just for yourself. There I always sing on the street. A special place, of course.

In other places of such an internal call, I never have. Gurudev left before the arrival of the month, so I decided to spend time waiting with benefit.In the morning, he went to the lecture by E. Bhakti Vidyapurna Swami, who has an amazing property in just a few words to straighten the brains in place. Honestly, I went to them like this, with the thought: “Perhaps it will come in handy,” but in the end it was a step that largely determined my activity for the next years.

Firstly, later partly in this article, partly-in the next it will become clear how because of them I became the coordinator of the Vaisnavian education. And secondly, these were three courses transforming for me, since at the “student in ISKKON” at that time, in addition to ordinary mortals, they were mainly studied by leaders who later had to teach him in different countries and continents, so there were mainly presidents of large temples like the temple in Delhi, regional leaders, one ji-Bi-si.

In their communication, my attitude towards ISKKON as an organization, to the role of an administrative structure in our movement, began to change strongly. Before that, I basically saw that there are the main troops of Bhakti-this is the main thing, but there is also a secondary organizational aspect that simply helps them to engage, but here, in communication, it was possible to look at the organization not as a material frame for the first time, but as an integral aspect of Bhakti’s practice-a deepening of the student position, understanding the subtle principles of the guru-tatattva, a better understanding of the simultaneous unity and the differences of the Lord and his energies and his energies and his energies and t.

In practice, for example, before my departure from Canada, the local Ji-BS hinted to me that actually this is not me and not my Diksha-Guru, they should decide where to serve me, but he. In general, in the X years, a devoted, even family, usually could not move to another city without the permission of the local leader. Now this practice is difficult to understand with you-“So I want to go somewhere, this is my personal life, how can I ban me?

Nevertheless, Srila Prabhupada then himself installed and maintained in many ways this system as an element of internal tradition. But when the local Ji-Bi-si told me about the need to follow his opinion on the issue of living, I then thought: “Aha, of course, for the sake of you, or something joined the movement, so that you determine my life? Now I would have acted quite differently, asking them with my Diksha-Guru together to solve this issue, they would meet just after a couple of months at the Ji-Tsi meetings, but then I just dismissed these words, thereby making a mistake.

And the problem is that when you make such mistakes, deviating from certain spiritual principles, then partially or completely fall out of the flow of the will of the Lord that leads you through life. And, in particular, from contact with the internal energy of the Lord, with thoughts of which I began this part of the story. In general, after the course, I became much closer and more understandable to the service within the organizational structure of our society-it became not something external, but filled with internal meanings.

Teachers training courses also radically changed my understanding in the approach to spiritual education. As the process of humble hearing can not be replaced, but deepened with various additional tools, transferring what he heard into a deliberate, and sometimes even - into the experience realized right there, on the course. But then I will tell you about this.

In the Gaura-Purnima area, I met with E. Bhakti Vigyana Gosvami. And if a couple of years ago he is to my question: “Where can I serve? It’s time to leave for a long time. ” But where? His first decision was to invite me to go to live in Chopatti. I don’t know if it was a mistake on my part, but I then expressed fear that my health could not withstand a long stay in the Indian climate with all its accompanying features.

He did not insist and told me then to return to Russia. It was assumed that I would go to the Ashram Bhaktivanta, but the set there would only be six months later, so in the first months I would live in the Ashrama Sankirtana, helping there Nimai Sundare Prabhu, the former rector of Asram Bhactivanta. Authorized, but most importantly-emotionally connected with Gurudev in the sense that it was something that was valuable to him then.

So I did not even remain on the festive programs preceding Gaura Purnim, and two days after Darshan flew to Moscow as soon as possible. After Canada, where there were 8 brahmachari for the whole country, here in one capital there were three ashrama with Brahmachari in each, which, of course, was a great expanse. In the Ashram, Sankirtana had many inspiring their qualities and immersion in the service of Vaishnavas.

Thakur Haridas Prabhu and Vrigaren Prabh were responsible on his shoulders for his management. Anups Krishna Prabhu and Madhava Puri Prabhu were personified by book distributors. There were already elderly "grandfathers", like Vatsepala Prabhu. I don’t even remember many names-the faces remained in my head, and the names because of the volume of the whole new over the past years were erased from memory.

I would like to glorify many, but it’s hard to tell about everyone, since here all this consists of little things and subtleties of behavior, and you can’t describe them all on paper. So ... who would choose a victim of their glorification?For example, there I met Padmanabha Prabhu. This is a man of amazing humility and immersion in the mission of the distribution of books. I have been watching him for many years, albeit from afar.

But sometimes we intersect after all, and I have never seen a single manifestation of the same pride in it, so for this reason I always perceive it for my elder. All his ministry of past years is work with the books of Srila Prabhupada: the reception of them from printing, storage, sending to cities for further distribution, calculation of finances, etc. All these years, it was thanks to him that the devoted in most of our cities had what books to be distributed, since he was engaged in sending books in the country.

If he was not in his warehouses, it means that he was on duty somewhere at the festival at the BBT book table. Or he was on prasada, but did not eat it, but read to Lylamritis for Ashram Prabhupada. Such, a representative of a calm, but constant immersion in the service of the Vaishnavov society. But you can’t give it all, "you have to see here." In general, such fighters of the invisible front, albeit unknown, inconspicuous, actually often make amazing ministry in the mission and are examples of a very inspiring consciousness.

The fact is that they affect other people whom many of you personally know, many of them play the role of mentors, leaders, etc.